3.27.2006

Car trouble III

My car died. Again.

Thankfully, it didn't die on my way to or from camp this weekend. And it happened after I left work today, but before I had reached a major road. (I can imagine stalling in the middle of rush hour traffic. Somebody would probably shoot me!)

I'm praying that it won't be too expensive to fix... and that it can be fixed so my car will be reasonably reliable. I'd really prefer not to have to buy a new car before grad school, but if mine is leaving me stranded on a regular basis, I don't think my parents will be too happy about letting me move three hours away to a place where I really don't know anyone.

I think that maybe God is teaching me to trust Him to provide what I need. I've never really had to before (even though I know that everything I have is what He has provided and that He could take it away at any time). I've always had a nice house in which to live, enough clothes (even when I have "nothing to wear"), more than enough food to eat (sometimes I think I'd be better off with a little less of that!), my entire education paid for, a scholarship that more than paid for my textbooks, a car that my parents owned and allowed me to drive (while they paid for repairs), good health insurance...

Now I'm facing three semesters of school for which I'll need around $20k (for tuition), finding a place to live, paying for my own (crappy) health insurance, paying an arm and a leg when I need medical care (which, thankfully, hasn't happened yet since I went off my parents' insurance--knock on wood!), maintaining a car that seems to be developing an alarming pattern of needing repairs on a quarterly basis, rising gas prices... This is definitely testing my faith and revealing to me how pathetic my level of trust in the Lord really is.

I'm also learning that it really doesn't get any easier to focus on God when I'm out of school. Sure, I don't have homework anymore (for now!), but I have taxes, work, bridal showers (not for me!!!), the occasional ministry...

2 comments:

Monica said...

Yeah...growing up isn't as fun as it looks.

Jason said...

you know that I can definitely emphathize!:)